casual rant

So as I troll through Lookbook.nu A website I'm a little too obsessed with, I find that as the days go by my sense of fashion is escalating and not in the way that I'd like it to. I remember my first day at Uni. I literally got up 4 hours before my first lecture to take a long hot shower, blow dry and style my hair, put on my cake- like make up, try on every outfit in my cupboard (mind, I have more clothes than I can fit so I have to keep them under my bed hah) and chose the perfect shoes. Then walk out feeling confident and quite happy. Thing is, I know many say that you can't rely on make- up and great outfits to make you beautiful, but that's not why I made the effort, I did it because it made me happy, feel more myself. A girl doesn't have to be going through an inferiority complex, or self loathing streak in order to want to put on those extra fake lashes or that bright red lipstick. I feel a girl should chose what she wants to do with her face/hair/dressing as long as she truly feels herself with it. Okay got a bit carried away there. hahaha. (that was feminist no?idk)

So what I was saying was that, I literally don't know how to dress up anymore. I'm constantly going through different phases in terms of my style, I sometimes dress super chic or really punk-rock or even quite hippy. But it varies and I'm always trying to modify my look in some way. I watch too much tv and get influenced by everyones style for example Lucy Hale(Aria) Pretty little liars, Gillian Zinser (Ivy) 90210, and Kaya Scodelario (Effy) from Skins. It's all so confusing when you don't know just how you really like to dress, I do think experimenting is fun though. New colours, new hairstyles, new socks? ;) My friends used to always come ask me for advice over clothes and hairstyles but now I've lost my touch, completely! I dress for comfort which isn't a bad thing but It's just not me and I can't really figure out what I need to do. I think I'm just bored of everything. I need a new look.
Was thinking more Rita Ora? or just a little tweaked. Man this is confusing. I'm going going to get into bed and try to come up with something original.