casual rant

So as I troll through Lookbook.nu A website I'm a little too obsessed with, I find that as the days go by my sense of fashion is escalating and not in the way that I'd like it to. I remember my first day at Uni. I literally got up 4 hours before my first lecture to take a long hot shower, blow dry and style my hair, put on my cake- like make up, try on every outfit in my cupboard (mind, I have more clothes than I can fit so I have to keep them under my bed hah) and chose the perfect shoes. Then walk out feeling confident and quite happy. Thing is, I know many say that you can't rely on make- up and great outfits to make you beautiful, but that's not why I made the effort, I did it because it made me happy, feel more myself. A girl doesn't have to be going through an inferiority complex, or self loathing streak in order to want to put on those extra fake lashes or that bright red lipstick. I feel a girl should chose what she wants to do with her face/hair/dressing as long as she truly feels herself with it. Okay got a bit carried away there. hahaha. (that was feminist no?idk)

So what I was saying was that, I literally don't know how to dress up anymore. I'm constantly going through different phases in terms of my style, I sometimes dress super chic or really punk-rock or even quite hippy. But it varies and I'm always trying to modify my look in some way. I watch too much tv and get influenced by everyones style for example Lucy Hale(Aria) Pretty little liars, Gillian Zinser (Ivy) 90210, and Kaya Scodelario (Effy) from Skins. It's all so confusing when you don't know just how you really like to dress, I do think experimenting is fun though. New colours, new hairstyles, new socks? ;) My friends used to always come ask me for advice over clothes and hairstyles but now I've lost my touch, completely! I dress for comfort which isn't a bad thing but It's just not me and I can't really figure out what I need to do. I think I'm just bored of everything. I need a new look.
Was thinking more Rita Ora? or just a little tweaked. Man this is confusing. I'm going going to get into bed and try to come up with something original.

Are there some secrets that shouldn't be kept?

What do we really know about the fashion industry? We know its all glamourous and glittery, we flick through colourful magazines, read articles online, attend exclusive shows and yes the occasional fan-based stories on how someone saw the perfect Gucci shoes and couldn't resist the temptation to buy em'. 
What we often forget to ask is, what really goes on behind closed doors? Is it actually all that bright and glim?
In an article I stumbled through a while ago 

(http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/releases/76241.php) 

I came across this shocking truth about the industry, Over 40% of the females are noted to having an eating disorder such as; bulimia nervosa , anorexia nervosa, body dysmorphic disorder due to the simple fiction that being a 'model' in the fashion industry brings you the glorious world you could only dream of in your sleep. No one ever questions the life these models really lead. Young women who apply for a job often find that the reason they cant make it in the industry is because they're not "thin enough" isn't that unfair? Why should weight be the main objective. If one is trying to portray their new  outfit collection, If its really worth the cost then why can't a girl with an average body size and shape demonstrate it to the public? As humans, we can't chose out body type but we can chose our size, Just because clients want to see a thin framed girl does one have to succumb to anorexia in order to fill that criteria? I personally find it ridiculous, the whole concept is nuts. There are constant discussions on how model recruitment agencies won't accept overly thin women to work for them but yet we don't see any natural sized models.  Arguments regarding highly influential models causing teenage eating disorders don't ever debate on how the models heath really is, condemning model- thin imagery is a diversion from understanding eating disorders. Personally on this  matter I think that Its not the models fault they're put in a position where they either lose those extra 20 pounds or lose their jobs, I think it's the people using them. 

The basic motto in the industry probably is "If you don't lose it, you'll lose it".  Models have to fit sample sizes and if they can't its harder to get jobs. What's unfair is that models are supposed to fit the dress and not the other way around. Our bodies were not made to constantly fluctuate in order to constantly suit different standards. I just hope there's an end to this misery. The video above really did push a nerve It's actually frighting.